I was having a very lousy day. Anyone, who would have seen me that day would have surely said, ‘ What’s wrong?’ It was similar to a scene of a movie, where the protagonist is so sad and is blindly staring into the nothingness out of the window. I was even deprived of the luxury of a window, I was in an auto. The cold air had made my pain more real. Yeah, the protagonist was in pain. I was in pain. And was literally too terrified to even look at the situation which had landed me in such a horrible state.
Dr.Wayne Dyer has said that whatever is happening in your life, each of your actions and its result has some meaning, which you will learn someday. Steve Jobs talked about connecting the dots. I get all this. But what about the emotions that you go through such as fear, shame, guilt etc… I mean, these things are excruciating. And they push a person to a point, where a person sees nothing and no longer wishes to live.
But then Dr. Brene Brown, the researcher comes into picture. She says, ‘Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the power of our light.’ Read it again, it says ‘the power of our light’.
The dark phase is unbearable. Certainly, it is. However, things for me were not same in that phase. I was having those intense moments, where, I was thinking differently, I was present in the moment, I felt every single sensation in my body, I was feeling a different connection with the universe. I was just cut off from the daily routine. Pain was changing my course. Pain was there, but the connection I felt then was inexplicable. It was bringing me closer to the ‘Power of my Light’.
You just need to surrender yourself. You just need to bow down, and accept it all.
As one of my favorites, Oprah Winfrey, puts it out beautifully, ‘The greatest blessing of being broken open is that you understand that no experience, nothing that happens to you is wasted. Challenges are just a way of moving you forward in another direction. Learning to live from this place of gratitude helps you see past the pain until you reach a state of grace you never even imagined.’
And you will see someday, that it was all for ‘the state of grace’.
Cheers to whatever ‘Life’ offers us…!!!