Second Guessing

I’m elated today after seeing my improvement. Today, I was in a situation where I had to give a speech. It was an impromptu one. My voice trembled a little bit through the speech. I wouldn’t shy away from saying that I was nervous. I was but it wasn’t nervousness out of fear, more of out of excitement.

Now, coming to the theme of my speech, it was quite different from what others said. When the event got over and I got some time to recapitulate things in my mind, I found myself second guessing my speech. But this time, I didn’t really let it hit me hard. Rather, I just responded to myself by saying ‘ I know that it’s just a pattern of mine, where I doubt my decisions, my work , my opinions etc. ‘ I was aware this time. So, it didn’t affect me much.

Morever, whatever happens, be it good or bad has to happen. It’s how your path is supposed to be. And, that  will make you what you are actually meant to become.

So, go ahead and embrace all days. Also, as said by Rupi Kaur , poet of Indian origin. ‘Healing is a daily process.’

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Heartfelt

As I am growing

I am learning about myself even more

I am not judging myself just observing

I don’t take things personally

I am understanding myself even better

I am analysing what’s right, wrong or neutral

I am realising when the times are bad , it’s all about you and your life lessons and not about anybody else

Simplest things, mindfulness, nature and bonds

are the elixir of a happy life

Could I get some more time

few more days and some more nights

To write a heart felt Letter to myself…!

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Thanks a lot for your time…!

 

 

Don’t make it personal !

When you are an empath, you take things too personally. And it actually isn’t good for the peace of the mind. People have different perspectives and so there is a high probability that their opinion won’t match yours. It’s Ok to accept that. Don’t get convinced easily of the fact that if the other felt in a certain way, you should also feel the same.

It’s good to have different types of people in your life, but the point is if everyone around you is very different from you, you end up doubting your own self. You worry that your thinking is not matching with theirs and if you are sensitive, it can hurt your morale sometimes. You need to know that there are definitely your kind of people in this world, but they aren’t with you currently. So, don’t question that unique spark of yours. Accept and appreciate what you stand for.

Let me share one case, in my close circle, there are 3 friends of mine who are very choosy about their photographs and they keep on telling me that I am a terrible photographer and that they are quite good at photography,  but the reality is,  I easily accept all my pictures irrespective of how I look in them. However, they are very fussy about it. Now, if I take their opinion into consideration, it questions my photography skills whereas in reality, it’s their attitude that is different when it comes to their pictures.

So, I need to know that I need not take it personally. No one is right or wrong. We are not on the same page when it comes to certain things.

Lastly, don’t put in peril the peace of your mind by comparing your opinion with others. Don’t try to make other’s happy at the expense of your own happiness. Your opinion matters. Your decisions matters. Just because you are with a different set of people, who think differently, it shouldn’t make you question your own self. Embrace it all.

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Let it go

Let it go

Before it drains

every ounce of happiness out of you

Before you regret

to have held  so long

Before you feel worn out

because of its burden on that mind of yours 

Learn your lesson

And move ahead

Perhaps, you may need to repeat the lesson again

But as of now ,

move away from the space 

Let it go

Go to your happy space 

that’s where you belong

Learn to end your night

And begin your dawn

You can save yourself

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Hold Up

I stay longer than I should in the situations that make me uneasy and uncomfortable. Because it’s me, so it’s fine. I overthink to the point where I am almost on the verge of a headache. All my decisions are made at the last moment. And once the decision is made I wonder if it’s the right one.

Lately, I have been realising I am best at finding faults within me even in the situations where they are none. As you might have inferred by now, I question my own worth most of the times. It is difficult for me to put myself  first. Even after so many years of hearing and listening about self worth, self love , positive affirmations and many more things, there is still a long road ahead. However, I am so proud that I am more aware now trying to stay in my Happy space, keeping a check on my thought patterns and many such things. After all ” Healing is a daily process. ” as quoted by Rupi Kaur.

So, I just wanted to share what I am practising these days is based on one of my observations. When I see any of my family members going through some physical discomfort or any problem in their life, I support them fully going out of my comfort zone always. I put their priorities and need at the top always. It comes naturally. You can say, I am willing to speak and stand for them. But this doesn’t happen when it is about me.

So, lately when I am in a situation where I am like backing off by saying that it’s all fine, I start imagining that there is an inner child in me who needs my support and I need to stand and support her. This gives me the courage to do things by stepping out of my comfort zone for her. And this has helped me in some situations. Try doing it for the Inner Child who unconsciously and unintentionally got neglected when you were young. Give her the Love that she deserver.

Since now you know better, so do better…

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Comparison

Remember, how all the things are just going smoothly in your life, all is well in your paradise until someone tells how they got this new job with a package triple than yours or when someone just casually remarks that you know you could have done better and then all these thoughts of that other person give a migraine to you. Relatable anyone?

Comparison can only hurt when you are insecure about your space.

For instance, there are times when you feel intimidated rather than feeling happy for people earning more than you or may be people who are looking better than you.

Just repeating it now,

Comparison can only hurt when you are insecure about your space.

Just think what it’s like to come from a place that is secure. Whatever you earn, whatever you do, whatever you feel, these are all your choices, isn’t it fantastic? This is your world, make it your happy space. It’s all about feeling content with what you have and then looking out for better prospects because your world is ever expanding.

It’s not about money, looks or even for that matter the status a person has rather it’s about the quality of life that one leads.

Your friend might be earning 1 Lakh a month and you must be only earning 20k, but you can’t berate yourself for this.  First things first, you should be feeling happy when people around you are growing . It’s good. And secondly, you should be secure about your world and be in a happy space. Even if you earn 20k , you should own it proudly. You are happy in your own world, say it loudly and proudly. (Money and  looks are so overrated and the quality of life is so underrated .)

I know, it is easier written than observed in life. As quoted by the famous poet Rupi Kaur ‘Healing is a daily process’, so  you need to repeat it to yourself many times before it actually gets absorbed by your brain.

Just think how happy and content you are when not comparing because your world is a very secure,ever growing and a very happy place.

Feel proud of your world and you will be inspiring so many.

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Prove

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I did it again…

And now  I shut my eyes in dismay…

I again tried to prove…

Prove to others…

Prove that I was strong

Prove that I was confident

Prove that I was worthy

Prove that I was enough

Proving to others is the ultimate defeat…

This is not what I want.

All I want is to know my self….!

To be truly aware of who I am….!

Know what’s the real and the glowing in me…!

Outcome

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Thinking of the outcome

my heart starts racing

It pains a little

in the centre of my chest

when I try to fathom

what it will be like

on the other side of the present

But what astonishes me is that

The other side of the present

will just be the next present

I will still have

the same feelings and emotions

I will still have the same struggles

may be a little bit better ones

With each passing day,

I am learning to surrender

Surrender through my prayer

Perhaps things will always show up

in the same form

But what Prayer shows us is

that we aren’t  meant to show up in the same form all the time

Dropping of excess baggage of pains and fears

is a daily process

Surrender all through the prayers

Afterall, there is nothing that yours in the world,

Not even the outcome…!

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