Today, while talking with a friend, I came to know that I had hurt her feelings few days back, whereas, I had no clue about any of this. Also, a normal discussion with my mom took a bad turn and I ended up upsetting her just a day before yesterday.
I have always believed that I have these virtues of kindness and politeness. But I am ordinary too is what I forget. I am not the epitome of the nicest things. It gets difficult for me to absorb the notion that I did something terrible to someone, even though, it was all unintentional. So, here are few verses, saying the same. Go slow.
I think and believe
that I am positive and kind
I am all things good and nice
is the point that I cherish
Yes, I am all the heart warming things
As I hurt people
and get angry
I upset my dear ones
and increase their pains
I am all the good things
Thanks for reading. I hope some of you will connect. Thanks again.
Something pinched my ego yet again.
So many times, I have repeated this lesson (related to the situation)with myself, yet evertime I forget what I learnt and end up in pain and sadness. My mood changes at the drop of a hat, when something clashes with my pretentious layers.
However, the good part is something is shifting in me. Ofcourse, the lesson is learnt by my mind every single time my false self gets hurt and the lesson has a permanent residence in the conscious part of the brain now. (It’s been years since I have been repeating the lesson.) However, the lesson was not absorbed by the soul and the heart. But now, I see it making its way into the heart and soul. It has started taking tiny steps. And, I am quite elated.What would earlier take days to heal, now heals in a span of some hours and even minutes.
I am in all gratitude for getting such situations, again and again. (Such situations don’t please me, but I know, they are vital, for me to be what I have to be). Because, I know, soon the essence of the lesson will be the part of my heart and soul.
Yes, Journey of a thousand miles begin with the first step and I am glad, that I have been walking some steps not that frequently, but yes, occasionally.
Yes, the tiny steps.
Yes, yes, Healing is a daily process.