It came with a lot of force this time
I just stood there
I couldn’t think
I had this water bottle in my hand
I started to gulp in water
and I couldn’t stop
because I didn’t know
what else to do
It took me some courage
to gather myself together
to enter the room
Which I eventually had to
I entered the room
I entered the room heartbroken
Things had changed in a second
I was heart broken
It was so intense that my heart literally pained
But I was more aware this time
Aware that it was just a bad day
And that this dark day is just a phase
Aware that even though I don’t see the brighter side right now
But there is
I kept on thinking about the incident
ever later that day
Still it did bother me in bits and tits
There’s still a long road
that I need to walk
which heads towards calm and peace !
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I’m elated today after seeing my improvement. Today, I was in a situation where I had to give a speech. It was an impromptu one. My voice trembled a little bit through the speech. I wouldn’t shy away from saying that I was nervous. I was but it wasn’t nervousness out of fear, more of out of excitement.
Now, coming to the theme of my speech, it was quite different from what others said. When the event got over and I got some time to recapitulate things in my mind, I found myself second guessing my speech. But this time, I didn’t really let it hit me hard. Rather, I just responded to myself by saying ‘ I know that it’s just a pattern of mine, where I doubt my decisions, my work , my opinions etc. ‘ I was aware this time. So, it didn’t affect me much.
Morever, whatever happens, be it good or bad has to happen. It’s how your path is supposed to be. And, that will make you what you are actually meant to become.
So, go ahead and embrace all days. Also, as said by Rupi Kaur , poet of Indian origin. ‘Healing is a daily process.’
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