Heartbroken

It came with a lot of force this time

I just stood there

I couldn’t think

I had this water bottle in my hand

I started to gulp in water

and I couldn’t stop

because I didn’t know

what else to do

It took me some courage

to gather myself together

to enter the room

Which I eventually had to

I entered the room

I entered the room heartbroken

Things had changed in a second

I was heart broken

It was so intense that my heart literally pained

But I was more aware this time

Aware that it was just a bad day

And that this dark day is just a phase

Aware that even though I don’t see the brighter side right now

But there is

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I kept on thinking about the incident

ever later that day

Still it did bother me in bits and tits

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There’s still a long road

that I need to walk

which heads towards calm and peace !

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Second Guessing

I’m elated today after seeing my improvement. Today, I was in a situation where I had to give a speech. It was an impromptu one. My voice trembled a little bit through the speech. I wouldn’t shy away from saying that I was nervous. I was but it wasn’t nervousness out of fear, more of out of excitement.

Now, coming to the theme of my speech, it was quite different from what others said. When the event got over and I got some time to recapitulate things in my mind, I found myself second guessing my speech. But this time, I didn’t really let it hit me hard. Rather, I just responded to myself by saying ‘ I know that it’s just a pattern of mine, where I doubt my decisions, my work , my opinions etc. ‘ I was aware this time. So, it didn’t affect me much.

Morever, whatever happens, be it good or bad has to happen. It’s how your path is supposed to be. And, that  will make you what you are actually meant to become.

So, go ahead and embrace all days. Also, as said by Rupi Kaur , poet of Indian origin. ‘Healing is a daily process.’

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